a gift? isn't that the result of all your past efforts?
i mean, if you want it, then do it. if not, then there's nothing to be sad about.
IOW,
"I am I, and you are you. I do my thing, and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
and you are not in this world to live up to mine.
If by chance we meet, it's beautiful. If not, it can't be helped."
— Fritz Perls (1893–1970), 'The Gestalt Prayer' (rephrased)
lol. That quote is like a blatant copy of the Al-Kafirun chapter of the Quran.
Say: Oh you who turn away. I do not worship what you worship, nor do you worship what I worship. And I will not worship what you worship, Nor will you worship what I worship. Your way is yours, and my way is mine.