Instead of obsessing with my rating on I just turned on Zen mode in lichees and hid all the numbers.
The game became fun again — Just "oh that was a cool tactic, let me try this weird opening, what happens if I sacrifice my knight for vibes?"
Turns out the rating was a distraction from the actual game.
Same energy as your point about "fucking around" being the point.
The elo was just making me miserable; removing it made me better anyway.
Instead of obsessing with my rating on I just turned on Zen mode in lichees and hid all the numbers.
The game became fun again — Just "oh that was a cool tactic, let me try this weird opening, what happens if I sacrifice my knight for vibes?"
Turns out the rating was a distraction from the actual game.
Same energy as your point about "fucking around" being the point.
The elo was just making me miserable; removing it made me better anyway.