When I think of the joy that I experienced from my body cavity and what "nothing" I feel now... gah. It's like a light gone.
I think I've always been low-key depressed but there was always this ray of hope. But now it's dawning upon me "this is it, that's life, take it or leave it" and that's just terrifying and demotivating. I feel like I have to accept that things I wanted so bad just won't happen. And with each passing day my exhaustion keeps getting worse so I feel like the number of things that bring me joy keeps getting smaller.
Sorry to hear friend. It may seem hopeless but you can change things. If people can hack chatgpt you can hack your rain. ;)
Often depression is just that, a sign you need to change something. The what is hard.. Often it's our mindset. Sometimes it's healing old injuries or abuses. Sometimes it's chemical. CBT can really help. Hope you find healing.
I think I've always been low-key depressed but there was always this ray of hope. But now it's dawning upon me "this is it, that's life, take it or leave it" and that's just terrifying and demotivating. I feel like I have to accept that things I wanted so bad just won't happen. And with each passing day my exhaustion keeps getting worse so I feel like the number of things that bring me joy keeps getting smaller.