You speak in a manner that seems familiar. One that I took on some time ago and am thankful to have left behind. Please be careful if this describes your current situation:
Thanks for the link. I'm familiar with the views/theories that that cult/group uses. Young and malleable minds can be easily manipulated using such views.
I find that for most people including me, it is much more beneficial to learn to meditate since the benefits are more practical. In my case meditation also allows me to have lucid dream with much better quality. I attribute that to the fact that meditation helps control the mind which calms the mind enough to realize that I'm in a dream.
http://www.movementsofgnostics.com/907