Fuck Christmas etc. I never had friends, all my life I was locked by classmates. Today I live alone with my parents. I never am messaged, smsed, emailed, phoned. I have no friends. The only people I see are at gym and at work. I have only one 06 at gym that I could see after gym by eating in restaurant but it's difficult for me to make friends at gym... At work it's a bit better but no friends too. Moreover I'm ugly and girls don't crush me on tinder so I am virgin. I tried gay sex because girls don't want me.
In the spirit of the season —- I hope things go better for you as time goes on. Many of us were isolated or lonely when we were younger, and the last couple years haven’t been easy for anyone. It sounds like you’re doing lots of things right — working a job, going to the gym, and trying to date — these are good and worthwhile things! The process of growing up and obtaining social acceptance can be a long haul and you may wish to look into therapy for some specifically tailored advice and a sympathetic ear.
This isn't to be dismissive of your feelings but consider finding a therapist, it sounds like there's a lot you're dealing with right now and having someone to nudge you in the right direction can help.
Hey man, first off Merry Christmas. It sounds tough and covid can't have helped. Can I suggest, in the new year, going on something like meetup.com and trying to get to a social thing once a week? Maybe a board game night, maybe some 5-a-side football, maybe a book club... whatever it is, getting out the house and meeting more people could really help - especially after months and months of weirdness and isolation.
Someone else suggested therapy - don't shy away from that if it's something you think you could benefit from, mens mental health is something we can proudly talk openly about nowadays and is as important to manage as physical health. Venting to someone in person could really help.
