Was your drive money for the sake of making a living or the like?
I personally have a project I would like to fully invest my life on and I would love to have the opportunity of not having to work (even when I am doing it for a FAANG) so I can see it progress, i think it may give me a fair amount of money, yet the real drive behind it is so I can improve people's lives. I think you need that, find that something "you would like to be rememvered for". Notice I am not siggesting you to put all your money on it, but your hearth. Figure out a cause that engages you, IDK what would that be for you, preserving nature. Researching something you are interested on. It does not has to be something radical nor new, you could follow the path someone else has already walk just for the joy of learning, who knows,aybe you will see something they did not.
And please! Stay out of drugs. I am a christian believer and yet even if you are not there is plenty of wisdom on that book so please note the following:
KJB - Genesis 3:17
"And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life"
cursed is the ground for thy sake
The curse of having to work toake the land productive is FOR THY SAKE.
Leisure and money will destroy yoyr life if you dont handle it properly so keep yourself meaningfully occupied.
Enjoy such a great blessing, dont tunr it onto a curse on yourself.
I'm an ex-Christian (long story) and I really do like that verse. I live in a third-world country but perform freelance work for foreign firms, so I effectively earn months of some people's salary here in barely two weeks of easy work. I have a lot of leisure time but I hate it because I feel useless during most of it, so maybe the curse of having to work is really "for thy sake".
Many people I know dream of having to never work again, but I can't just picture myself that way.
I personally have a project I would like to fully invest my life on and I would love to have the opportunity of not having to work (even when I am doing it for a FAANG) so I can see it progress, i think it may give me a fair amount of money, yet the real drive behind it is so I can improve people's lives. I think you need that, find that something "you would like to be rememvered for". Notice I am not siggesting you to put all your money on it, but your hearth. Figure out a cause that engages you, IDK what would that be for you, preserving nature. Researching something you are interested on. It does not has to be something radical nor new, you could follow the path someone else has already walk just for the joy of learning, who knows,aybe you will see something they did not.
And please! Stay out of drugs. I am a christian believer and yet even if you are not there is plenty of wisdom on that book so please note the following:
KJB - Genesis 3:17
"And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life"
cursed is the ground for thy sake
The curse of having to work toake the land productive is FOR THY SAKE.
Leisure and money will destroy yoyr life if you dont handle it properly so keep yourself meaningfully occupied.
Enjoy such a great blessing, dont tunr it onto a curse on yourself.
Cheers