Hey Jesse, I can sympathize with your situation, and I've seen you get some really solid advice in other comments here so I'll just add my 2ยข about presenting yourself.
I have a couple of probing questions, and I mean no offense, just to provoke thought:
1) What good is atheism as a worldview if it prevents you from communicating, and even receiving help you desperately need?
2) Why would a recruiter or potential employer care about your past, living arrangements, or financial troubles?
You sound like a smart, driven guy, but I think you're letting your situation and your beliefs cripple your potential right now. You don't have to _change_ those things, they're real, but you might want to limit who you share them with, or in what context, especially until you can find the help you need.
I have a couple of probing questions, and I mean no offense, just to provoke thought:
1) What good is atheism as a worldview if it prevents you from communicating, and even receiving help you desperately need?
2) Why would a recruiter or potential employer care about your past, living arrangements, or financial troubles?
You sound like a smart, driven guy, but I think you're letting your situation and your beliefs cripple your potential right now. You don't have to _change_ those things, they're real, but you might want to limit who you share them with, or in what context, especially until you can find the help you need.
Wishing you the best!